Friday, April 28, 2017

Makan Banyak

In the Name of Allah,The Most Merciful and Most Compassionate

Teguran daripada Allah itu sangat bermakna. Tambah-tambah apabila diri ini alpa tentang kesederhanaan yang Dia selalu tuntut daripada semua hamba-Nya.

Dikisahkan bahawa satu hari, saya berasa sangat lapar. Kemudian, saya dan sahabat pun melangkah ke gerai berhadapan IPG untuk makan petang.

Dalam tengah mengunyah makanan itu, saya membayangkan makanan seterusnya yang saya teringin. "Hm, best ni kalau dapat nasi lemak pula". Padahal makanan dalam pinggan pun belum habis. Sejurus selepas habis makan, saya dan sahabat melangkah pulang.

Gerai nasi lemak yang saya idamkan itu, kebetulan tutup pula. Jadi saya pun memujuk hati, "Tak apalah..lain kali sahaja pekena nasi lemak ni" .

Sampai di bilik, saya mempersiapkan diri untuk solat Maghrib.
Usai solat, tafsir merah jambu saya capai.

Saya hanya random membuka tafsir. Tak sangka, terjumpa ayat yang sungguh menginsafkan on-the-spot. Dan, sungguh, ketika itu, dua perasaan berbaur menjadi satu menyebabkan saya ketawa dan menangis serentak. Ketawa, mengingatkan ketamakan nafsu, (foolish thought of being greedy) dan sifat berlebihan. Sedih hingga mengalirkan air mata mengingatkan Allah yang terlalu baik pada hambaNya. Menegur direct daripada kalam-Nya.

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" Wahai anak-anak Adam! Pakailah pakaian kamu yang indah berhias pada tiap-tiap kali kamu ke tempat ibadat (atau mengerjakan sembahyang), dan makanlah serta minumlah, dan jangan pula kamu melampau; sesungguhnya Allah tidak suka akan orang-orang yang melampaui batas."
(Al-A'raaf 7:31)

Allah tak cakap pun, "Jangan makan banyak-banyak!". Tapi Allah cakap, "Allah tidak suka orang yang melampaui batas". Sweet kaaaaan ? :')

Hingga saat itu, saya sedar, saya bukan mengisi perut untuk menahan lapar tetapi saya menyumbat semua kehendak nafsu ke dalam perut yang sebenarnya sudah kenyang. Selepas itu , saya mula belajar mengawal diri! ^_^

Bersederhana dalam makan..dan setiap perkara yang dilakukan. Memang, saya suka makan (==,)
Bukan tak boleh makan apa yang disuka, tapi Allah suruh bersederhana.
Dan kena ingat juga ;

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"Dan makanlah dari rezeki yang telah diberikan Allah kepada kamu, iaitu yang halal lagi baik, dan bertaqwalah kepada Allah yang kepadaNya sahaja kamu beriman."
(Al-Maaidah 5:88)

Makanlah makanan yang baik (berkhasiat) dan halal! :)

-20 Januari 2013-

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Hampir 4 tahun berlalu, saya masih ingat kisah ini lalu saya membuka blog untuk membaca kembali coretan saya.

Kisahnya, saya makan tengahari bersama-sama ayah. Gulai kepala ikan kena dengan sambal belacan dan ikan masin, em, tak cukup sepinggan tu. Kemudian selepas pinggan saya licin, dan pinggan ayah hampir licin, kami saling berpandangan..

'Em, tak cukup..'

'Ayah pun....'

'Nak lagi!' kata saya dengan girang.

'Ayah pun nak!' haha.

Dan saya melihat baki nasi. 'Ibu tak makan lagi ni..'

'Takpa masak lain untuk ibu,' kata ayah. Memang ketika itu ibu sedang tidur, (tidurnya tidak boleh diganggu).

Maka saya cedokkan nasi ke dalam pinggan saya.

Tiba-tiba, kelibat ibu muncul di dapur. 'Aik? Bila bangun?'

Haha..maka melepaslah hajat saya nak tambah nasi. (Ayah sempat 'smuggle' sikit nasi ibu hihi).

Mengingatkan saya pada kisah saya 'ditegur' pada 2013 ini..Sungguh, kadang-kadang lapar itu sudah hilang..kenyang sudah hampir..jika berhenti makan, maka lengkaplah sunnah Nabi, makan sebelum lapar dan berhenti sebelum kenyang. Namun tetap nafsu menidakkan hakikat itu. Kononnya, nanti 'membaziaq' nasi ni. Padahal nak mentekedarah lagi haa.

Sebenarnya, sementara masih di rumah, saya mahu makan banyak-banyak sebelum bepergian jauh di rantauan. Tetapi tetap.. bersederhana itu tidak kira tempat bukan? :)

Semoga dalam bersederhana, ada berkatnya.

InsyaAllah.

-28 April 2017-

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Another Chapter


'How are you?'

'I'm fine.'

'Mmm.'

'Well, it looks like I'm fine.'

'You seem to be happy about it.'

' -hysterical laugh- Well.. I am happy, even if I'm not, I have to.'

*

'I can sense that he's not so happy about this.'

And she nodded. Agreed. 

*

I doubted myself once, 
but I know, I won't be there by chance.

Surely My Lord knows why
-reasons of putting me there.

Am gonna enjoy this 'vacation'.

My life is just so adventurous,
much more interesting than a plain one. 

*

Born as a happy kid with an old soul.
Carefree yet stubborn.

Surely,
will treasure upcoming events and memories.
More to come.

May each one of them, brings happiness, joy and most importantly - blessings.

*

'Are you going to be okay?'

'InsyaAllah, I will.'

*

'You seem so positive about this, If i were you, I'd cried already.'

'It seems that I'm full of positive vibes. Haha'

- because I have to. And I need to.






I know the road is long,

'Make me strong'


Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Living, and Giving

"When you don't give up, you can not fail"


There are countless of times in life when I felt hopeless and eventually, low self esteem - to the point that I felt not needed and useless. I hit the rock bottom - hard, and painful. Painful enough for me.
But I've decided not to give up on myself - never will, insyaAllah.

I have myself, the only thing that can bring myself forward is none other - but myself.



Therefore, I've learnt the hard way that, 'To live is to give". We don't live our lives on our own course. We live for others too.

We live to worship the Creator, Allah swt.
We live to be good and do ihsan to our parents, family members and humankind.
We live to serve the community we're living in - no matter how small that contribution is.
We live - not to satisfy ourselves only, but others too (Eventho obviously we can't afford to satisfy everyone).

That is how I learnt to do or to give something for the community. Find something within our strength and capability, and give it to others. Because through that way, you'll get better life lessons. This is how I've got a lesson from the hadith :

"Look at those below you (less fortunate than you), and don't look at those above you, for this is better" (HR Muslim)

Do you seriously think you'll understand that hadith through reading it just like that?

No, you won't. Not in a million years. You will never understand that hadith if you have never went thru any experience of 'Looking at those below you (less fortunate than you)'. 

There was once, the student council in my college held a small charity programme for the homeless around Chow Kit. We gave them food and some money, which is only RM3. It was a very small amount of money - but not to them. There were hundreds of them, lining up just to get that food and money. That broke my heart. I studied and get paid for hundreds for a month, and them? I can spend that RM3 on an ice cream, but to them their RM3 is worth of a meal for a day. T.T

It was then, I learnt, the less fortunate worked so hard to get what I had. Literally, to them, I'm actually living a luxurious life that they have always dreamt of. I have a family - a house, and a table which is always full of food - I'm rich. That is the definition of being rich to them.

While waiting for the bus to fetch us, we chit-chatted with some homeless guys, who worked as cleaners. He was a drug addict, he was used to be jailed, in and out for a few times, and he got tired of it. He felt like doing something good for himself, but.. as usual - it wasn't easy for people like him to get a job. That's why some of them decided to be 'the bad guy' because they have never found any way to be 'a good guy'. I think, some of them even like prison more than the real world outside, because at least, in the prison they will be given food and get treated, while staying outside, they will be left to die - rotten.

This kind of experience was creepy, I tell you, I was scared to death. It was night - that was the only time that we could gather them, they're busy working in the morning. T.T But I pretended like I was so cool and chill je haha. They had no intention of harming me anyway - they just wanted the food. 

Experiencing in volunteering events gave me lots of life lesson - that can never be found in classes nor books. Therefore, being a volunteer was one of my biggest achievement so far- because thru that, I can always find myself the purpose of 'living my life for others'. There are numerous of people who are less fortunate than me- and I thank Allah, for giving this kind of opportunity to me, and of course, thank Allah, for the blessings he showers upon me. 

Never give up on yourself, when you think that everything doesn't go your way, or everything seem so wrong, think again - you are blessed enough to live to this day. You just need some time to find yourself and take some time to be grateful. 

It was obvious in His Book isn't it?

 "If ye are grateful, I will add more (favours) unto you" Ibrahim 14:7

Alhamdulillah.


(Chow Kit, 2014)

P/S : That was me in white tudung and black shirt hee. ^_^

Gonna start my adventurous life very soon. May Allah ease me, you and all of us :)